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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 03:50

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Ive learnt so much.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

If atheists are so positive that there is no God, where is their proof that He does not exist?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I couldn’t, believe it.

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I could never make a relationship work though!

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Can I have a comfortable life as a nurse in Sweden? Can I buy a house and not worry about the cost of living?

This is soul school!.

I was very sick at this time too.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was scared of men, in general

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He knew the spot.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She found it foreign!.

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Would this be the day?

I said to her

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She loved him until the end.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But it wasn’t much.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She was in good health!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I think the readers, may guess!

When she asked me how she looked .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was seconnd youngest,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

So, i spoilt her more .

But, we were locked up after school.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I will be 64.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

She wouldn,t have been !

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And i lived it daily.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Who then, do I blame.?

Im still living with it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So whats the point in blame.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I was 9 years of age.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Put me off passion for life!!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

What did i know ?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My life is so biszare .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Especially a lifetime of it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I don,t even have a pension.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I have no regrets .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I write beautiful poetry .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

All the time i was locked up.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Comes on , in middle age.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

One cannot live in the past .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He resisted the act ,that day.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I waited trembling.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We were not on the streets..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

It was going to be , some day.

We all went to grammer schools

I never cut or harmed myself..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Why did i forgive my father ?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But ive been too sick for many years..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My family never makes their pension either.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She married twice! .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I know ,a lot about trauma.